I’ve been remade.
I am not who I was.
I am not yet who I will be.
Yes, I’ve made huge, enormous mistakes. Choices that I look back on and am deeply ashamed of. Things I’ve done, things I’ve said, things I’ve not done or not noticed or not said.
These things are real and true. I did them. Or didn’t do them.
Yes, I’ve had huge hurts, large difficulties to overcome, setbacks. Yes, I’ve struggled much in this life.
I came just as I was to Jesus. Over time, I’ve brought it all to Him (well a very large chunk). Bit by bit, as I began to understand how much He loved me, how patient He was with me, how He could take all that awful stuff and heal it and make a way for me to move forward in this life without carrying all that baggage…to move forward in freedom, forgiveness and love. Jesus did this.
I had to let go of who I was, who I thought I was, who I thought I wanted to be. Bit by bit, over the past ten years…I’ve let go. I’ve learned to not try to understand, but instead to trust. I’ve learned to not worry, but instead to remember all Jesus has done and will continue to do.
This morning I read an article by Ashley Judd about women and their appearance and the pressure we face in this area. It so reminded me that my identity, my value and my worth are not tied to my career, my income, who my husband is in society, my body, my face, my car or my house or who my friends are in society.
My value is solely placed and only placed on who I am to Jesus and in Jesus and because of Jesus.
Jesus loves me. I am valuable.
Jesus love you. You are valuable.
Jesus says, “Come to me all you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest…..Let me teach you for I am humble and gentle at heart and you will find rest for your soul.” Matthew 11:28-30.
No, we are not as strong as we think we are.
No, because of Jesus we don’t have to be as strong as we think we need to be.
Notice the use of the word will…Jesus WILL give you and I rest.
I’ve often told my athletes and clients “when the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of change, you’ll make different choices.”
Jesus says, “Come to me”. Simply come. He’ll do the rest…just be ready to let go and become remade!
Because of what Jesus has done in me, for me the past ten years, I am so excited to approach 50. I am solid in my relationship with Him. The next half of my life is going to be absolutely incredible. I’ll have him through the challenges. I’ll have Him through the good times. No matter what the next, hopefully, 50 years brings, Jesus is with me and Jesus is all I need.
Won’t you come to Jesus?
Some songs I love. Check them out if you would.
You are more by Tenth Avenue North
Come as you are by Pocket Full of Rocks
Come Home running by Chris Tomlin
Love Heals your heart by Third Day
The hurt and the Healer by Mercy Me
Remember Jesus love YOU. He is real. He is personal. You’ll never by the same.
Won’t you come?