Well, here goes my first blog post. I thought that I’d review all the information and learn a ton about how to use this blog and set a bunch of stuff up..but, alas, the need to write is more overwhelming that the need to know. Sounds like ready, fire aim doesn’t it?
It’s been a week. Not a bad one. But, not one of my favorite kinds of weeks. It’s been a week where I have been personally and intimately challenged. For moments, ok a few hours, ok a couple of days..I just went weak and whiney. A dear red headed friend worked her butt off trying to lift me up with truths about God and I just wanted to whine instead of grab the truth and get out of the ditch. She still loves me, despite that resistance.
So, I spent the better part of Thursday and Friday, praying because I couldn’t praise and just trying to hang on until weak and whiney passed.
In the late afternoon or early evening, I checked my email. Lo and behold, finally a response from Evotri. Evotri is an endurance sport group that holds a contest every couple of years for athletes. You submit a 5 minute video and from the video they select a new team member. This is cool because getting selected for a team is always cool (not that I would know because I’ve never been on a sports team in my life, but I’m sure it’s always cool when you are) and they also give the new team member an outrageous package of Tri goods – like nearly $10k worth of fast stuff. Well, the email gave me the news that they did not pick me.
Now, you know I’m already weak and whiney..so this should have sent me deeper into the ditch wouldn’t you think? Well, I had literally about 5-10 minutes of hmmm, I’m disappointed. And mostly the disappointment came because darn it I WANT race wheels and losing meant no race wheels. But, the disappointment over not being selected, that passed ever so quickly.
I truly believe and just as importantly know, that if I didn’t win, then it isn’t in God’s plan for me. And, you know, God’s plan is what’s best for me. So, stay tuned…God will show up in response to this and we’ll get to see what He really wants for me.
My life is busy. Aren’t we all? I’m privleged and blessed to be busy with really GOOD things. However, I am overwhelmed and the sensation is that of being flooded. Some days I’m ok with knowing there’s much out there I need to do and didn’t get to and other days, that knowledge strikes a cord of fear and feeling out of control.
This morning, I woke up with a certain peace and hung out in my favorite corner of the living room for some devotional time with God. Well, He gave me some nuggets that I want to share. The nuggets are simple, but I’m very sure not easy. I am also very, very sure that when (not if) I live my days like He instructed me this morning…then I will live my days in peace. Peace, I really like that concept. Not as in peaceful and still and not exciting..but as in peacefully exciting. Kind of like swimming in open water. The chop is on the surface, but just below the surface, the water is very calm.
Inside Out – one day, I’m writing a book with this title and today’s nugget just drives home the significance of how everything happens from the inside out.
My choice is to surrender to the overwhelming circumstances in my life or to rise above. To surrender is not an option. So I must rise. But how? That’s what I was asking God this morning to answer for me.
Here’s the question God gave me this morning: WHO is driving your pace and WHO is driving your choices?
Ouch and Wow. Is God driving my pace and choice (inside). Or, are others driving my pace and choice (outside)?
The answer was clear – I am letting the outside drive too much of my pace and my pace is driving my choices. So, if my pacing is wrong then my choices aren’t right either.
Here’s more. I’ve been reading a book by Francis Chan called Forgotten God. It is about the Holy Spirit. As a Christ follower, I have the Holy Spirit, which is God INSIDE me. So, if God is to drive my pace and choice (and I can’t think of any Being better to do this can you? I’m quite certain I don’t want to be in charge!!) I simply need to ask God to drive my pace and my choices each day. If I ask, He’ll answer.
I know my priorities, I don’t always make choices that line up with them. Here they are, listed in groups from Inside to Outside.
Group 1 – my relationship with God
Group 2 – my nutrition and physical health, my marriage, finances and home
Group 3 – my family, friends, church and my triathlon training
Group 4 – work and serve others – my job and my community
When I keep Group 1 and 2 in priority, then 3 and 4 stay manageable! When I am sloppy and short with 1 and 2 then 3 and 4 get overwhelming.
I recently read a quote that says, “how we live our days, is how we live our lives”. That is oh so true. For so many, life slips them by, because days slip them by. When days slip by we don’t become who we truly aspire to become or who God planned for us to become.
Oh not me. I want each day to add up and become a great life that has made a lasting and eternal difference!
I’m going to let God drive my pace and drive my choices!